Before someone else does

10th grade 

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year 

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day 

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

Moral of the blog :

Say I Love You before someone else does 

7 roses

Current mood : Sweet Memories

Here i dedicate 7 roses for you

~Kind-hearted Mr google will help with the meaning of 7~

Are u daring enough?

"Dont try to understand a girl completely. If u do, either u'll go mad or u'll start loving her"

I'm glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came

Y_Y

Esok (31/01) pukul 1 pm dah nak balik Key Eeel Y__Y

CU Terengganuian this April/May!

p/s : Misi 10 hari mencari cinta hampir tamat,aku pasti rindu sama orang2 yang aku sayang kat Terengganu nieh! Sayang directly and indirectly. Terutamanya mak dan abah~

Mak ngan abah jual gigi...hek3

Gambar curi!! Mak tgah watpe tuh?! hihi

Bye...muahh :x flying kisses~

10 days for love

Uhum...akhirnya aku kembali ke kampung selepas 3 bulan di perantauan. Post sebelum ini ade aku cakap yg aku berterima kasih kat boss sbb bagi cuti 10 hari :

"is goin to take 10-day leaves and falling in love with someone, somewhere in this earth, fight off conflicts, and goin back to work.TQ BOSS c:"

Sekarang ade seminggu aje lagi sebelum kembali ke tempat keje..=_=. Maknenye dah 3 hari terlepas ntukku mencari cinta..hak33.

Ok, sebenarnye 3 hari tu memang sengaja dilepaskan sbb musabab tertentu. 3 hari full keje part-time. So tinggal 7 hari ntuk balik ke kampung halaman.......untuk mencari cintaku kembali.

Cinta dan rindu yang telah lame ditinggalkan di kampung halaman.

Cinta dan rindu sama itu oven dan mixer yang hanya boleh didapati di dapur rumah aku kat kampung..hehe. Kat Pantai Hillpark mane ade pape kat dapur, ade ricecooker, multipurpose cooker, ngan elecric thermos. Tu pun sume aku yang bawak dan beli...kalau x memang x berasap. (Btw, thanks to Tya sbb rajin gorengkan telur dan sosej ntuk saya :D )

Ok, sambung cerita pasal cinta. Aku dah jumpa cinta baru..name dier Sarah Phillips. Sarah nie expert in baking and cake decorating. Dulu sebelum start cuti, hari2 aku spent time surfing out things to manipulate and be my own recipe (my gtalk status). Kadang2 sampai 3 pagi salin tips and recipe sbb xde printer. Ades, letih!

Sejak sampai kampung pagi tadi, aku dah aim nak ajak mak g sopim. Sopin segala barang yg diperlukan for my 7 days to find love. To-buy-list memang dah siap dalam handbag burukku. Dan aku memang beruntung punya mak yg memang core-business dier kat dapur, at list separuh daripada to-buy-list dah ade kat dapur. Xyah spend duit lebih..yeah jimat! Pengembaraan antara si gadis dan ibunya bermula, dan Alhamdulillah aku masih ingat camne nak bawak kete Kelisa manual kesayanganku itu~ (duk kl mane main setakat kereta nieh. naik yang besar2 trus macam bas,keretapi,LRT,Komuter,monorel).

Sesi membeli-belah memang penuh debaran.sbb aku x bawak cash, nak guna CIMB card la konon. Baru ade feel sign on merchant copy like a boss. But..no worries nymore sbb my mak belanje sume.Alhamdulillah, tenkiu mak!! Sebagai ganti dan mengenang budi mak, aku belanja la roti boy. Sebijik dua bijik je udah, high colesterol ok! Hmm...nampak cam kedekut je anak dier nieh, tp xpe, aku belanja mak abah ngan doa anak solehah ok :)

...........dah sampai rumah dr shopin, my day officially begin. Harini dah buat 3 creations non-stop. Strawberry butter cake, baked cheesecake, stabilized whipping cream.

(Abah perli aku kot ''Sairah balik kampung patut pi masjid dengo ceramoh, ceramoh td sedap. Patut g dengo belake."). Hmm...dr dapur rumah aku dah boleh dengr ceramah tu sebenarnye,tp dengar sikit2 je. hehee.

Drpd 3 creations td, 2 of them succeed except whipping cream. Aishh...dari haritu aku fail buat whipping cream nieh. Dahla mahal..kalau x menjadi memang agak membazir. So aku decide nk tukar recipe whipping cream gune care yg slalu aku buat kat Haagen Dasz. Dan esok pagi kene kuar sopin whipping cream lagi sekali, brand lain plak. Hopefully tomorrow is my day.

-2.00 am. Shut down my sony...and goin to bed now-

N.O!

this quote said :

since i dont have any reason..then do i need to hate u?

-NO!-

,_,

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem

You love me no longer, I know

And maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do.

Mama tells me I shouldn't bother that I ought to stick to another man

A man that surely deserves me

But I think you do!

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me and say that you love me

Fool me and go on fool me

Love me and pretend that you love me

Leave me and just say that you need me

I can't care about anything but you.

Lately I have desperately pondered

Spent my nights awake and I wonder what I could have done in another way to make you stay

Reason will not lead to solution

I will end up lost in confusion

I don't care if you really care

As long as you don't go.

p/s : game of life~

One step closer...

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How do be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall,

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow.

I have died everyday

waiting for you

Don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

and for a thousand more.

Time stands still

Beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything

Take away what's standing in front of me

Every breath,

Every hour has come to this

One step closer...

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more.

WORDLESS - 1

Video Klip nie sgat lawak..batman indonesia tuuh. Tapi lagu bes ;)

More : Songs of November

-p/s : Akan menjaga selalu hatiku! -

Stay

It has been a while since i decided to close this site from public.

Million and trillion things i've keep deep inside without telling others and even without jot down any single word in my diary

(dont have a diary actually..last time being a princess diaries was 3 years back when im 17)

Well that's my way and yet still survive ntill now~

I'll stay silent and wait till the right day come and show me how this life would be ended up <3

-With love to my loved one-

Kisah Raye Korban FA

[Post No 111]

- Hari nie Hari Raya Korban

- Cuti pun seciput je..Isnin malam dah nk kene balik Hillpark Y_Y

- Walaupun seciput, tp better balik kg sbb rase cam dah lame x tgok majlis menyembelih beramai-ramai bersame sedare mare sejak habis SPM dulu (erkk...ayat ganah disitu)

- Rutin utama bersame sedara dan sepupu sepapat selepas sesi menyembelih ----->

minum dan hirup bone marrow lembu gune straw. Dalam ayat proper 'Sup Gear Box'

- Fuhh...bnyak lemak terkumpul dalam badan! So nk ilangkan lemak, balik rumah trus mandi ngan limau purut...hmm nampak x kaitan antara lemak dan limau di situ

- Lepas tu...xtaw dah nk buat ape. Bosangggg weyhhh! Yelaa,since im alone.

Forever Alone (FA)~

- Oleh kerana bosan dan rase alone...maka satu langkah paling bijak ntuk mengatasi masalah bosan ialah

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- Mengusik dan bermanje ngan kucing kesayangan kakakku. Suke nguh 'geletek' kucing nieh....mane taknye, kucing nie suke melawan kowt! fobia betul ngan aku sbb suke geletek dier. Lepas tu larikan diri g tempat terpencil dan berdebu sbb nk mnyorok dr manusia cam aku nie.heheee

- Btw, korang pernah x geletek kucing? carenye senang je.......tarik bulu dier sikit2.hoho. lepas tu konfem dier rase geliiiiii...xpun cakar tgan korg sbb gatal sgat geletek dier.

- Kalau nk tgok cmne reaksi kucing nie time kene geletek...click la video kat bawah. Time nie dier sembunyi kat tingkap yg berdebu sbb tension ngan aku kowt. Tp video nie x bes sgat sbb xcukup tangan. nak geletek kucing ngan nk rakam vid at same time.

- Dan yg pastinye tganku ade calar sbb kene cakar..grrrrr jage ko kucing. kene la esok!

- ......sedihnye....ingat nk bermanje ngan dier gune care geletek tuh, tp skrg dah makin liar dan lari lintang pukang smpai lupe diri bile nampak aku lalu dekat.

zzzzzz im FOREVER ALONE again ;(

Moral of the blog :

Never make assumption that all things you have done before are right from the eyes of the other. Think advance peeps!

cinta donat

LELAKI = Mende utama yg die nampk msti pmpuan cantik aje!

(kebanyakan laaa...tipu kalau laki xsuke tgok pmpuan cntik)

(jOM Layan komik bawah nie jap! click to view larger)

Cube gak jadi macam donat bawah nieh...sehuduh, segemok mane pun pmpuan tu, mesti ade kecantikan yg tersembunyi! cume kamu x nampak je.

Moral of the blog : Hensemkan diri anda dahulu sebelum mencari yang cantik2 ok~

twisted

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xtau nak taip ape

mood : swing!!!

- hidup xleh dikongkong, ai nid freedom

- projek blambak, satupun lum commit

- MAGgy pink slalu xcukup zat, pastu pengsan tepi jalan

- muke dah x berseri mcm dulu

- bonded is not good....intern pun pyah

- someone already mke my H twisted

- conclusion : i jump into one conclusion!

- arghhh, benci!

So, sehari dua hari nie nk transform jap

dats d only solution....

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-4dis timebeing i'll be a new SERA-

-original one will cme back later, soryyyyy-

She said :

It's always been about me myself and I

If all relationships were nothing but a waste of time

I never wanted to be anybody's other half

I was happy to say that our love wouldn't last

That was the only way I knew 'til I met you

You make we wanna say....I do

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I can live without it, I can let it go

Ooh, I did, I get myself into

You make we wanna say I do

Tell me is it only me

Do you feel the same?

You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games

I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down

You can trust and never feel it now

Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say I do

Oh baby I do

You make we wanna say:

Me a family, a house a family

Ooh, can we be a family?

And when I'm old and sit next to you.

And when we remember when we said I do

Cause every time before we spend like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I won't live without it, I won't let it go

Just look at what we got ourselves into

You make we wanna say I do...............Love you!!!

p/s : errrrr,hahahaahaa ;)

My Super Saiya

Tall dark and super manly

Puts papers in his briefcase and drives away

To save the world or go to work

It's the same thing to me

He's got his mother's eyes, his father's ambition

I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him

Hang on every word you say

And you smile and say how are you?

And I'll say just fine.

I always forget to tell you I love you.

I'll love you forever

And I watch you fly around the world

And I hope you don't save some other girl

Don't forget, don't forget about me

I'm far away but I never let you go

I'm lovestruck and looking out the window

Don't forget, don't forget where I'll be!

Right here wishing the flowers were from you

Wishing the card was from you

Wishing the call was from you

'Cause I've loved you from the very first day

I watched Superman fly away

You got a busy day today

Go save the world, I'll be around

For ever and ever

I watched Superman fly away

I swear I'll be with you someday

I'll be right here on the ground

When you come back down

P/s : Come back down

20 years 20 days

p/s : Ignore Taylor Swift + Picnic at Gua Tempurung..huhuu

Dah 20 hari berlalu, tapi hari ni nape rase diri sgat gembira???

Ok, let me conclude y :

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---> Today im officially 20 years 20 days

Fact : Nape pmpuan sgt pentingkan nombor? hmmm misteri2

---> Got another surprise, from my rumate Ndy

Fact : Woww she's gud in making the right date~

---> Start to think seriously bout.............

Fact : Im too good to be true 2u! Yet too true to be good! (kopi pasta someone words)